To a Mother not Mine
published in ARNA 2021 (The Arts Journal of the University of Sydney)
Me, like Christ denied three times
By blokes all bluster no bite
the words congeal and die stuck to his throat
No more a foot in mouth than lover’s oversight
I ask of our loveling’s whereabouts
Me, contained after passage over land and sea
He, proprietor of my puplet
Uncharacteristically silent until garbling— they, they
Out for a walk! Out for a stroll! Out yonder entirely out of my control
Would you let a bitch walk a bitch?
Eat your words for filial pie?
Dangle the life of your life—who’d no doubt follow, soft-pawed
Not knowing better since he is man’s best after all
that he’s just been pawned for pixel time
Under the guise of a mother not mine
There my boyfriend rots in front of his screen
Here i pace in my sweet, collecting rage
And ? where ? she trots I have not a clue
Because man made it so
handed the reins over;
hoping my joy returns in one piece
The prodigal son goes, astray, the maternal bogey alights with my furry footed love on a wild goose chase under the farce of care
The man dog doesn’t follow in his stead,
The old bitch who whelped him